Terangnya Abadi

kau mencari apa, teman?
apa yang sedang kau cari?
sehingga kau korbankan waktu istirahat tubuhmu, jiwamu, dan imanmu?

coba mari sedikit merapat kemari, teman.
lihat sejenak beban apa yang memaksamu meninggalkan Ia..
masalah apa? sebegitu beratnyakah hingga kau harus berburai?

beberkan, lugaskan kepada kami, hal apa yang ada di kepalamu.
pasanganmu? awalnya dari dia?
jadi dia yang membuatmu terjungkal keperbuatan gelap?
mari kita maafkan..
buka diri dan coba sedikit menjauhlah agar kau dapat terang.

lalu apa? keluargamu?
bagian mana yang membuat mereka menyakiti batinmu?
kesulitan itu? semua benang kusut ini?
coba uraikan.. uraikan secara perlahan.
jangan kau hiraukan ajakan setan, untuk mengurai masalah dengan sekelumit masalah baru.
kulihat tubuhmu, putih. kulihat jiwamu, sesungguhnya putih.
namun beberapa kali tersungkur di gelap hingga ada beberapa lebam yang mungkin sulit meninggalkan bekas.

perlahan..
biarkan semuanya berjalan secara perlahan. izinkan kehendak Allah yang berjalan.
coba kau dekati Dia lagi. dekati dengan maksud tidak hendak menyakiti.
berserahlah dan tetap berusaha dengan baik.
syukuri apa yang telah ada sekarang, hingga kau tidak terbebat dengan imaji mendapat yang lebih.

kau tahu Allah selalu ada.
jangan biarkan dunia menghempas putihmu, sayang. jangan..

jadi masih adakah lagi yang menghalaumu menuju Dia?
apa? dunia? ya aku tahu..
di dalam dunia ada manusia. ada juga makhluk lain. pun setan walau kasat mata.
berbaik sangkalah. jadilah wanita baik. hingga kau nantipun akan mendapat teman yang baik.
sungguh Allah sesungguhnya Maha Pemaaf.
asal kau sadar, kau mampu tinggalkan kegelapan.

jadilah terang.. walau jalan menuju sana menempuh waktu.
karena mudah-mudahan terangnya mampu abadi.

Set Fire To The Rain, by Adele.

I let it fall, my heart,


And as it fell you rose claim it.

It was dark and I was over,

Until you kissed my lips and you saved me.

My hands they're strong, but my knees were far too weak,

To stand in your arms without falling to your feet,

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew.

All the things you say that were never true, never true,

And the games you play, you would always win, always win.



Chorus:


But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Let it burn while I cry,

Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
When I lay with you I could stay there,


Close my eyes, feel you're here forever,

You and me together, nothing is better!

Cause there's a side to you that I never, never knew,

All the things you say they were never true, never true,

And the games you play, you would always win, always win.



Chorus:

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Let it burn while I cry,

Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain

And I feel lost into the flames

When I felt something die,

Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!



Sometimes I wake up by the door,

That heart you pawned must be waiting for you.

Even now when we're already over

I can't help myself from looking for you.



Chorus:

I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touch your face,

Let it burn while I cry,

Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,

And I feel lost into the flames

When I felt something die

Cause I knew that was the last time

The last time, oh, oh!

a bit crunchy new activity.

hello.
16th July 2012, 11.59am by my work wallclock.

have been 3weeks i'm not writing here. so, been a long way diferent too, on my life.
there's a lot changing on my rountine. another daily activities i do. actually it's a new activity, only since 3 days ago.
somewhere, that make my lungs feeling bad. i'm trappin inside, and didn't know where else places to go.
my sleep, got destructed too. it makes my eyes, look like a zombie. i drink a hell water too. actually i forced by another people. they obliged me to do somethin that being their routine. yahs, my faults.
i strongly apologize for this all. i can't do much better to get a better one from doing all of those stuff.

whoever read this letter, and have something to ask to me, just ask me. i open for any suggestions. :)
advice me, cause i'm just a little lady who's still growing up and tried to be a good one.
haha. ciao. i'm gonna get pray now. then having my lunch, maybe. don't forget to have yours too!